This morning, I feel inspired. Actually, I'm more tired than inspired, but nevertheless I feel inspired enough to spend the hour and a half commute from Far Rockaway to write. Granted, it won't take nearly that long to do so, but the fact that I'm not dozing off on this shuttle bus has got to count for something.
I just realized something that I'm pretty sure I've realized many times before. The thing about realizations, however, is that they come in waves, which means my life has become full of the constant wave of self-discovery.
I'm about to graduate. Now this may not seem like news to anyone who reads this blog, but trust me, it is to me. Because even thouh I've spent the entire year preparing myself for next fall, it didn't feel real until now-until I committed to a college and watched all my friends do the same, or fully understood that college is going to be the first time where I will feel like a minority. People keep asking me to partake in these panel discussions about how it feels to be a founding member of a school, or the tips I would give to people taking a college now class for the first time next fall, and I find myself reflecting about these past four years. It's a bittersweet experience, thinking about what I'm gonna leave behind but simultaneously gain as I embark on this next segment of my life. I've never felt so grown up, to the point where I almost can't remember how my life was before this point.
Almost.
The fact is, I'm going to say goodbye soon, which means leaving behind all the words of wisdom I've given. But the wonderful thing about being an Uncommoner, especially since I'm one of the first, is that I'll never really officially have to say goodbye. These last four years-or these last eight years actually-will always be a part of who I am and where I'm from; all the good and the bad.
Leaving what might as well be my second home will not be easy, but knowing that I can always come back, and that I've chosen a place that will undoubtedly become my new home next fall and for the next four years makes it easier.
As for my legacy, also known as this blog, my words have kept it alive for four years, and soon it will be time to hand it down to someone whose words of wisdom and experiences will ensure that it stays alive. Luckily for me, I have found the perfect person to do so, someone who inspires me constantly, whose words must be shared.
And if you're wondering who this special person is, you'll just have to wait. My time on here may be almost over, but I can still leave you with a good cliffhanger.
