Giving Thanks

There are so many things to be thankful for in life, and not just on Thanksgiving, but it's hard to forget. so I decided to it down, and really think about all the things I had to be thankful for, and as I love to do, make a list of it. This really has become a tradition.

I am thankful for:

1. My parent's support while I stress over my last year in high school and college
2. My dad allowing me to record epic shows such as Switched at Birth and The Vampire Diaries when I can't watch them on the weekdays.
3. An amazing mentor who believes I can get into my dream school even when I don't.
4. An english teacher who sees me as a leader inside and outside the classroom as she opens my eyes to what a college English and philosophy will look like.
5. A teacher's assistant who has helped what used to be my broken spanish evolve into  something, who motivated me to swallow my fear and take AP Spanish this year, who has inspired to dream of learning and teaching spanish in the future.
6. A little sister who I can call nicknames like squishy head, and count on to annoy me to the point of insanity, but only because she cares
7. A family who will take me in during a time of crisis and make me feel as if their home is the closest to a second home I'll ever get
8.  My dad getting me Maroon 5 tickets for my birthday. Bless his soul.
9. For all the nights my mother and I have sat together and watched romantic classics together, something that has become a beautiful tradition.
10. For two best friends who know me better than I myself, and have shown me how supportive and genuine true friends can be.
11. For a year of inspiring classes that have helped me become obsessed with topics like politics and philosophy.
12. For certain underclassman that never cease to amaze me.
13. For peers who have surprised me this year by becoming people I can not only count on, but also people who have made me smile and laugh when I'm on h verge of tears.
14. For artists like Cher Lloyd, The Yeah Yeah Yeahs, and Green  Day, whose songs I've had on repeat
15. For parents who wish more for me than they had, and do everything in their power to give that to me.

Full of maybes

My college list is broken up into two categories; colleges I can see myself at, and colleges that are actually feasible. It's sad, really, thinking about the fact that my dream school may just be that, a dream. 

And as I finish my college applications, I have this recurring dream, or more specifically, nightmare, where I await college acceptances that never come. 

As morbid as that sounds, I'm sure I'm not the only senior whose had this feeling.

But for the first time, I found a school that didn't fit either of these categories.

For the first time, I see myself at a school, but not only in my dreams, in the future.

And maybe it's a women's school.

Maybe I didn't know about it until the school gave me a merit scholarship.

All I know is, after having an hour long conversation with a freshman at Bay Path College it  just replaced Syracuse University as my number one school. 

Because I love Syracuse university. Hell, I'd sell my soul to go there, if I had the chance.

But it's my dream school. That school that I'd go to if I didn't have to think about anything.

But the reality is, I have a lot to think about. I have to think about how my parents are going to cosign on my loans, parents who want to move out of the projects of Far Rockaway About how I have a litle sister who needs to go to college as well.

And maybe I have it all wrong. Maybe I'll finally get to wear that Syracuse  sweater I stole from my ex-boyfriend on its campus next fall. Maybe a letter from Posse got lost in the mail, and I'm actually a finalist. Maybe University of Pennsylvania's need based financial aid isn't actually a myth and my acceptance letter will  be accompanied with an immense of money that I won't be able to refuse. Maybe I'm the future mayor of New York who is a professor of political science on the weekends. Maybe I'll come back to Uncommon to teach Spanish.

And maybe I'll go to Bay Path College.