Can't Wait for Mondays

It's a secret, but I've never really seen Glee the show. I do know one thing, though, that I love to sing, And if I can sing and have fun, you can count me in as a member of the new Glee Club. Plus, it gives me something to look forward to on Mondays. If anyone is curious, Daysha is the mastermind behind the Glee club, so thank her for the awesome idea. I can't wait for singing and learning how to, perfect preparation for the highly anticipated musical (wink wink) and of course the band that's being formed. I can see it now, us singing Fever 95 and Michael Jackson, Paramore and Mcfly (because they definitely need more recognition) Lady Gaga, Justin Bieber and anybody else we want to sing and perform. Needless to say I can't wait!!!!

I have a question

I have a question: is a polka dot head band distracting? Because according to the school, wearing it requires a punishment. For wearing a polka dot head band. I guess I was wrong when I thought that people would look at my face when they looked at me. Apparently that's not the case. No, when people see me they're fascinated, no mesmerized by my head band. For that, it's only fair that I get a violation, right?

I hope my sarcasm shows through my words because trust me, it's there.

Now, is that something that really needs to be addressed? To me, there are other issues that should be dealt with. Like the band that's being formed, how will we get our instruments? And why isn't there a girls basketball team? No I guess the executive decision is to chastise someone (that person being me if you didn't already notice) for trying to make her hair look remotely decent. What I really don't understand though is why no one told me to take it off when i came into the building instead of at the end of the day.But hey that's UCHS for you. Extreme rules and lots of responsibilities, that's the way it goes. Sometimes it's like we're not even in the tenth grade. Really, it's bad enough I'm short and I don't look like a tenth grader. We don't have to be treated like we're still in WCCS too.

Rock band camp was Awesome

Thanks to Ms. Lynch, I got to go to a girls rock camp this year. Picture Camp Rock the movie but not a sleep away camp and nobody would randomly start singing and dancing. It was in a building and full of a bunch of cool musicians and instruments and dance parties. I got the pleasure of playing the guitar (because it's awesome) and being in a band for a week. All I can say is too bad it was only a week. There were guitars and drums and basses everywhere and the teachers were usually in there own bands like The Homewreckers. I saw my first punk and metal performances and my guitar teacher taught me to play Green Day songs. There was band practice and workshops that taught you how to make band art and make zines. It was one of the best weeks of my summer and is one of the reasons I'd like to have a band in UCHS, the other reason being that I learn, live, love rock.

Fresh Starts

It feels as if forever since this blog has been written on, but it hasn't been that long. Truth be told, it's only been about two months since the last day of school, where we were still at Wilson Street and crowding in Donut Connection and hanging out on Broadway. It almost feels as if everything has changed. New school year, new Mcdonalds to buy smoothies and mcflurries in, new students to be role models for. all I can is it will take a while for us to get accustomed to this beautiful school that seemed to only exist in our dreams until now. It's amazing how easily everything can be so similar but yet so different. UCHS is still a family, and I think it's safe to say we always will be. Now, though, I think we''ll become stronger now that our dreams and hopes are finally materializing in front of us.If this is our high school imagine how breathtaking our college campus will be, which amazingly, is only three short years away. I never thought we would be lucky enough to have a rooftop, enormous gymnasium and a cafetorium (did we invent that?) and everything else that is ours. The way I see it we now have no excuse to not prove everyone wrong and not exceed all the goals set for us.It's our job to take our abilities and resources to the next level and show everyone out there who don't know who we are that we exist, and they better watch their back.

I had a breakdown

If it's one thing everyone in UCHS has experienced is a breakdown. When you have as much stress as we do it's almost impossible to not lose it sometimes. Something in your head clicks, and the only thought that runs through your mind is" I can't do this anymore". It's really hard, school. It may seem as if all we do is complain. Complain about the rules and the homework. Complain about how life is unfair. But that's what it always is. Imagine you study every day for physics. You sit there for at least an hour redoing your problems from class, drilling the kinematics equations in your brain, but when you take a test it's like they start swirling and no matter how hard you try, the result you get back is a 56. It's aggravating, to give all this effort and see no progress. And that's what really brought me down today. The fact that this entire year feels like a waste because my grade in physics is a 71. I know I'm being hard on myself, but it's a habit.

Find something to keep you going

To me, the hardest thing to find is motivation. My dad likes to tell me that potential is nothing if you don't have motivation. You need something to keep you going. Some people just naturally have the tenacity to continue to fight till the end no matter what. Like my mother. I, on the other hand, have a bit of a problem when it comes to attention span. Boredom is my worst enemy and music and writing are my only vices. The only way to survive life and everything that comes with it is by finding something that you can look forward to and sticking to it. Especially with school, where you can become drowned in your stress, it's good to have something to keep you going. If you don't, you can go insane with anxiety, or just stop caring altogether and become complacent. That's one of the worst things that can happen, being satisfied with being mediocre. You should always strive for more, even though it's really hard. Always have that dream in the back of your mind that will keep you on your toes. For me, my dream is me standing in front of a crowd with a microphone in myhand, and my words from my heart on the tip of my tongue as I sing it out. That's what I think about when I don't want to do physics homework, or I want to fall asleep in Global (sorry Mr. Baggs,don't take it personally).
Everyone should have one. I just think about it and my skin comes alive and my heart is rejuvenated. That's my something that keeps me going.

The exception

Fake people are everywhere. I used to wonder what being fake meant. Did that mean that you were made synthetic or something? As I grew older and met new people, though, it was an inevitable fact that I was faced with people who aren't genuine. People who will plaster a smile on their face when they're around you but once you leave their mouth is full of all the flaws they notice. It's an unfortunate part of life. You can't have everyone like you. If you revolve your life around pleasing everybody, in the end you won't be pleasing anybody, especially yourself. It's normal to want to fit in. I spent my entire middle school year in that stage. Everybody wants to be popular and cool once in their lifetime. Eventually, though, you realize there's more to life than being able to boast that you're the name in everyone's mouth, or how many facebook friends you have. You need to accept you for you, and that's what high school is all about. It's about discovering who you are and being proud of it. I've been in the place where you have this false image of yourself that in the back of your mind you know you'll never live up to, but for some reason you still strive to be it. It's hard to get out of there, trust me. When you do, though, you'll realize how fake and ubiquitous the majority of people are. Everybody follows the trend like a herd of sheep just so they can have something in common with everybody else. Like my dad says, "you have to be the exception". Find yourself and learn to love you. Eventually you'll stop caring about what other people have to say. You'll know when your being consumed by peer pressure and when your not being yourself, and find the people you can really be friends with, the ones that don't make you think twice about what you say in fear of harsh judgment. Like Audio slave sings," To be yourself is all that you can be".